The day Elle walked away from Marv she had no idea what to do or how to handle her plight. She would not consider talking to anyone about her baby, not even her mother. She figured if she told her mother she’d receive a long lecture and what good could that do her? Elle’s decision for secrecy was motivated by one thing that screamed loudly and clearly to her- she felt ashamed, very ashamed. She was keenly aware that what she had done to get herself into a crisis pregnancy was wrong. No one needed to inform her of her mistakes.
Abortion was illegal but even so Elle would have been too afraid to consider such a course of action. Abortion was a dirty word because the consensus in the United States believed that abortion was a terrible word for snuffing out a very innocent human life. Other atrocities such as the slaughter of handicapped individuals, the elderly, Negroes, Jews or any form of racial genocide lessens in severity to abortion in only one way. Anyone already born has some possibility, however small or remote, of escape by fleeing from a life threatening predator. For an unborn human being there is virtually no chance for escape from the abortionist’s knife, suction or lethal medication. It is an attack on the most defenseless of humanity.
What if Elle had revealed the truth to Marv? Pondering life’s “what ifs” can become an endless exercise that proves both useless and vexing to mental and emotional health. Had Marv known about my existence before I could be born I suspect that my chances for survival would have been slim. Marv was liberally minded and from New York City where one of the abortion capitals of the world was located long before abortion was legalized in the United States. There were physicians such as Dr. Bernard Nathanson who ran the largest abortion clinic in the western world in New York and admits being “personally responsible for 75,000 abortions.” Read Dr. Nathanson’s personal testimony here: http://www.aboutabortions.com/Confess.html
Dr. Nathanson, himself a Jew, later changed his views when his medical research confronted him with the unborn child’s full humanity. He forsook violence and began speaking out against legalized child killing. Every citizen of the world should have the intellectual and moral honesty to hear Dr. Nathanson’s perspective on reality here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbKwR5g6SCQ It becomes a very slippery slope when one segment of humanity is viewed as not fully human…the slide to inclusion of other segments of society gets easier and we are desensitized to the intrinsic dignity and value all human life. The American baby boomers that chose child killing for convenience are starting to find they are living out the full circle of their choices as they swiftly move to being the inconvenient and fiscally expensive elderly.
As irony would have it I am at this part of my own history on January 22, 2011 which is the 38th anniversary of the United States Supreme Court’s pro-abortion, legalized child killing decision in Roe versus Wade. Jane Roe whose real name was Norma McCorvey was the young woman used as a pawn by the attorneys in the case founded on a lie. Part of Jane Roe’s story is here: http://www.pregnantpause.org/people/roe.htm
The United States Supreme Court has been wrong more than once. The court was also wrong in the Dred Scott decision of 1857 which was strongly opposed by the Republican officials of that time, including Abraham Lincoln. http://www.digitalhistory.uh.edu/database/article_display.cfm?HHID=334
Since my biological father did not know I existed there were no attempts to end my life while I was pre-born. Elle bore her secret completely alone. She never told anyone…until 35 years later when she revealed the truth in a very unplanned and unexpected way. She had planned to never tell anyone, especially me. The truth has a way of revealing itself however long it takes. She feared that if I ever found out I would hate her. Nothing could have been further from the truth. When I did find out (which took a miracle) I felt only compassion for her. She was courageous and she gave me life.
Looking back, Marv may have been and probably was in love with Elle- at least she believed he was because he acted like it for a year. Had Marv found out the truth he would have never married Elle because she was a Gentile. At that time it just wasn’t done. So what would have been the alternatives? Would Marv have pressured Elle to go with him to New York to see a doctor there? I can only speculate based on the information I now have that I believe Elle might have faced such pressure. After all she was a young, impressionable woman alone with her shame, confusion and very uncertain future. Perhaps my chances for staying alive would have been slim.
Dr. Bernard Nathanson: I could have become one of his victims in NYC before his philosophic medical practice change.

I could have ended up in a clinic like Dr. Nathanson's in New york before I was born. I believe God's protective hand was on my life and I thank my mother for the courage to give birth to me regradless of her circumstances.
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